Week 53 ~ Finding time, A Pep talk to me.

Well, I can't believe I missed another week.  I've never really thought of myself as a busy person.  Even when I was raising three children and going to school, I always felt like I had enough time.  But here lately I feel like I'm always running out of time.  The past two weeks have been crazy busy, but they are past and now I'm trying to get my mind set on focusing on this up coming race.  I did go in for my weigh in and in the past two weeks I have lost 4 pounds. My new number this week 173.4.  I fell off the diet wagon this weekend and I'm struggling to get back on it this morning.  I didn't even get my runs in this week and I'm beginning to wonder if I can salvage the marathon at this point.  I'm not willing to give up yet, but I know that if I don't' get serious and soon, I will be hurting in May if I choose to run 13.1.  So what side tracked me this week?  This week my husband again spoiled me and we went to Dallas/Fort Worth to buy a new car on Wednesday.  I've been doing my long runs on Wednesday lately because it just seemed to "fit" better on that day.  It took all day to drive back and Thursday was a really bad day at work and I didn't get home until 11:00pm.  I still haven't been able to make myself get up and workout before work like I did last summer when I was training.  So now I'm beginning to wonder if I have the commitment that I need to even run anymore.  I have my goals, I know my goals, and these haven't changed.  So today I am going to print out the photos of couple dresses that I would like to wear to the wedding in October and place them on the mirror in the bathroom, refrigerator door and this computer.  I'm starting my list of things to get ready for May and then I will work on a schedule.  So the question this week to my inner self is "How bad do you want this?"  I guess it's time to see, how bad I really want my goals.  I do think I look better than I did a year and a half ago when Ahtesham bought me the last car, but I still want to look better.  No one can do this for me, no one can exercise and put the miles in but me.  This is where I have to stand up and take responsibility for my goals and reaching them.  Let's do this thing!  Why?  Because I want to look even better when I finish my next 1/2 marathon.  And I want to look damn good when I go to Dallas for the wedding in October!  This is for ME!  Til next week, keep moving. ~ Darcy