Well, the number 51 can only mean one thing for this blogger......I have one more week left before I will have been on the JC program for a year. In total I have lost 30 pounds, a little more but I gained some back. And that my friends averages out to less than a pound a week! Icky! At my lowest I did reach 154, look way back to week 24 I think. Then I gained 26 pounds back and now I'm gaining and losing the same five pounds. So I guess I can say that I've learned how to maintain. My husband was never really "happy" about this program, but did support me and carried me a couple of weeks when I quit a job. Now he is wondering if it is wise to pay the money I'm paying to gain and lose the same 5 pounds and you know what? I can honestly say that I have wondered about the same thing in the past two weeks. I may not have said it out loud, but I am starting to wonder if this is really a good idea anymore. I have one more week before new dues will be charged and I plan on using that week to ponder my commitment to the program and myself. Looking back I have done everything I could to sabotage myself in the past five months. That said, I did go for my weigh in on Friday. I dropped 2.6 pounds this week. No, I'm not celebrating, why because I gained I think 4+ pounds the week before. I didn't write my number down, but will post here 177 and that is more or less what it was. So is it time to move on? Is it time to get serious again? I personally don't think I'm ready yet to go out on my own. There is still more I need to learn about my eating habits and I like my consultant. I hear her voice in my head on days when I'm struggling. Last week she gave me her number to text her when I feel like I'm going to fall off the edge. I haven't used it yet, but maybe that's what I need now. Someone to reach out to and say "Help!". I do hear her voice on days like today when I'm sitting at the computer and don't want to get my runs or core exercises in. She says that this makes her laugh. I think I'd miss her if I stopped going in to weigh. Maybe if I reach out when I'm about to binge instead of trying to face it alone, it will help. Maybe it's time to reach out and stop trying to fight the inner demons alone. I did just look back at all the past posts and after week 24 things went down hill. There was the constant changing of consultants, then the 1/2 marathon training, and finally the decline of the job happiness. I know that I never called the center for help. I never talked to my consultant mid-week if I was having issues. So I will spend the next few days thinking about my choices and what to do. My consultant has a doctor's appointment next week, so I will just weigh in and pick up food. The following week we will sit down and decide where to go. I've struggled, I have struggled a lot this fall and winter. I'm so ready for spring! I also haven't the that good with my marathon training. If I plan on running it's time for to get my tushy off this seat and get in gear. Get serious about my running and start logging my miles. If I don't May will be a total disaster. So I have a lot to think about in the week and a half. Til next week guys keep moving~ Darcy
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Well, the number 51 can only mean one thing for this blogger......I have one more week left before I will have been on the JC program for a year. In total I have lost 30 pounds, a little more but I gained some back. And that my friends averages out to less than a pound a week! Icky! At my lowest I did reach 154, look way back to week 24 I think. Then I gained 26 pounds back and now I'm gaining and losing the same five pounds. So I guess I can say that I've learned how to maintain. My husband was never really "happy" about this program, but did support me and carried me a couple of weeks when I quit a job. Now he is wondering if it is wise to pay the money I'm paying to gain and lose the same 5 pounds and you know what? I can honestly say that I have wondered about the same thing in the past two weeks. I may not have said it out loud, but I am starting to wonder if this is really a good idea anymore. I have one more week before new dues will be charged and I plan on using that week to ponder my commitment to the program and myself. Looking back I have done everything I could to sabotage myself in the past five months. That said, I did go for my weigh in on Friday. I dropped 2.6 pounds this week. No, I'm not celebrating, why because I gained I think 4+ pounds the week before. I didn't write my number down, but will post here 177 and that is more or less what it was. So is it time to move on? Is it time to get serious again? I personally don't think I'm ready yet to go out on my own. There is still more I need to learn about my eating habits and I like my consultant. I hear her voice in my head on days when I'm struggling. Last week she gave me her number to text her when I feel like I'm going to fall off the edge. I haven't used it yet, but maybe that's what I need now. Someone to reach out to and say "Help!". I do hear her voice on days like today when I'm sitting at the computer and don't want to get my runs or core exercises in. She says that this makes her laugh. I think I'd miss her if I stopped going in to weigh. Maybe if I reach out when I'm about to binge instead of trying to face it alone, it will help. Maybe it's time to reach out and stop trying to fight the inner demons alone. I did just look back at all the past posts and after week 24 things went down hill. There was the constant changing of consultants, then the 1/2 marathon training, and finally the decline of the job happiness. I know that I never called the center for help. I never talked to my consultant mid-week if I was having issues. So I will spend the next few days thinking about my choices and what to do. My consultant has a doctor's appointment next week, so I will just weigh in and pick up food. The following week we will sit down and decide where to go. I've struggled, I have struggled a lot this fall and winter. I'm so ready for spring! I also haven't the that good with my marathon training. If I plan on running it's time for to get my tushy off this seat and get in gear. Get serious about my running and start logging my miles. If I don't May will be a total disaster. So I have a lot to think about in the week and a half. Til next week guys keep moving~ Darcy 
Well you will hear my voice screaming at you if you don't get on the treadmill and follow the training plan! I haven't said this much ..or maybe I have but not to the degree I want but my knee hurts after my run. So I'm running with a knee and will probably need a huv-around after this race so you better stick to the plan. As far as JC.... well that one you get to decide on your own.
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