And then there was a derailment.......Week 26

And this week has not improved.  This week I am saddened to say I don't even have numbers to post for the blog.  I cancelled my weigh in appointment for Saturday because I was frustrated.  Frustrated with myself and with Jenny Craig.  Well, not the as a whole, but the the branch that I currently visit each week.  Let me go back a few days and explain.  On Friday I got my usual phone call reminder for my appointment.  I was working so it went to my voice mail, when I got off work I listened and was disappointed to learn that my usual consultant would be out again!  So Ahtesham said to me then tell them, if you never say anything they will never know.  I said it before and I'll continue to say it.  My weight loss journey is a personal and private one.  Yes I know that I blog every week here and that I post my numbers for all to see, but YOU that read only see a small bit of the story.  And really I don't think more that five or six people at most read this blog.  The readers can see my numbers, which were getting better and are still a lot better than when I started and that's really all.  Yes, you get a glimpse of my struggles but only a small portion of it.  So I cancelled my appointment on Saturday rescheduled it for Tuesday and then on Sunday at work towards the end of the shift I fainted and fell on my face.  After paying my part of the deductible I couldn't afford to go to my appointment and I can't afford to go next week either.  So I'm on my own for two weeks.  I do have some meals left in the freezer and I know that I can make it for two weeks, but even with all that I'm still upset by the fact that my consultant keeps "taking days off."  Part of me thinks, everyone deserves time off, even you like to have a day off.  But part of me thinks, why doesn't Julia (my current consultant) say something when we are scheduling the next week?  If I know in advance, I can just order my food and then weigh in and just pick up the order.  I don't like being passed around.  I realize that sometimes there are emergencies, but really Julia has been gone more than she's been there lately.  The biggest part of it may be that she is the center's director, but then if she has too much on her plate, she should clean some off of it.  If she won't do it on her own, I can always help, by taking myself off her plate.  Right?  So there is my gripe,  I know for a fact I've probably gained about two more pounds and I'm unhappy with myself.  So here it is in black and white for the world to keep my in check.  This weekend I think I will "juice fast" the whole weekend to get back on track.  Then I will call the center on Monday or Tuesday and schedule an appointment for the end of the week and get back on track.  I will talk with them about my concerns and see if maybe I should switch to an on-line consultant or another consultant that's a little more reliable at the center. 

As for the exercise portion of my life, on Thursday when I started my run, I felt a sharp stabbing pain in the back of my thigh.  So intense that I actually jumped off the treadmill and stopped.  I ended up walking for 45 minutes, but it really never got any better.  So I took three days in a row off of exercise to give my legs a chance to "recover".  I did run on Monday and yesterday, both days felt better.  I still have my long run to get through this weekend.  I have 9 miles I have to log, but I think that I will be okay if I just take it a little easier on my old legs and don't push quite so hard for the rest of the week.  Today is only a three mile day and I am planning on keeping it at just three miles. 

 I guess I will look at these past two weeks as a speed bump and do my best to put them behind me.  I think I've taken at least one small step forward by posting here of my failures and venting my frustrations.  Time to drive past this bump and get back on the train!  We still have a few miles to go to reach the goal.  And I KNOW I want to be at least 150 when I go to run my 1/2 marathon.  That's the one positive thing I did last week.  I registered for the Prairie Fire 1/2 on Friday.  I'm going and I'm gonna finish!  So till next time, keep moving! ~ Darcy