Week 30 ~ Nerves.

I did go in this week and weigh in, it has just taken me a few days to get back to the blog and write it down.  This week has been one crazy, stressful week at work and next week doesn't look much better.  So, my new number is 156.2, I wasn't super excited when I saw the number on the scale.  Which is a 4.2 pound loss from last week, but I think a lot of it was water weight.  Looking back at the past few weeks I have a sneaky feeling that I've been hovering around this number for a while and the water has be fluctuating my weight up and down....just my thoughts.   I did see the same consultant and I'm getting to know her, she did put less pressure on me this week and didn't fight when I ordered only the items I wanted.  It was a brief meeting because I had a busy day and the next meeting will be shorter because of my busy week.  Nothing has really changed on the program lately, but I was told that new foods are coming.  My consultant ordered them this week, but would not tell me what they were.  I really need some new food items because I know I'm bored with the ones I'm eating now.  I really hope that this is the beginning of another downward trend.  We'll see how it goes, still have a few weeks before I will decide if I will just leave the program all together or not. 
On the exercise front I did better, but not as well as I wanted.  I did get in a long run of 7.5 miles, I did exercise all but one day this past week.  I didn't get any core, abs or arms in, but will work on that again this week.  I have to start tapering down for the race and I know this will drive me nuts.  I bought new shoes, why does buying a new pair of running shoes make a runner so happy?  I can't believe that my race is 2 weeks away.  Part of me feels like I'm trained and ready.  But there is part of me that keeps saying "What if all your runs were crap runs?" Did you train hard enough?  Really did you train well?  I guess I'm a tad scared because I will be alone in this run, even though running by it's nature is a lone sport, but my mind can talk loudly sometimes.  I'm worried that my mind will win that morning and I will quit before I finish.  So this is the past week.  I'll keep doing my short runs and work on the mind.  Till next week, keep moving everyone ~ Darcy