Well friends, it's time for me to step into the confessional and tell all. Maybe if I tell all my deep dark dirty secrets and come clean, I can find a way to begin again. This week I posted a 1.6 pound gain. So my new number is 176.7, I'm going the wrong way. And I am so far away from where I was this past summer. Every thing seems to have gone to pot after my 1/2 marathon. So did I just get too full of myself for reaching a large milestone? Did I get lazy? What happened to my motivation? Where did it go? Do all runners have this same problem? How do I move forward? How do I stop this roller coaster ride and get off?!? To be honest I really don't know what happened. Maybe it was a little of bit of everything. My job at the time was getting harder to manage and I wasn't ready to give up. I was defiantly lazy. I was oh so proud of myself and thought "one piece of candy can't hurt me." After all I just ran 13+ miles!!! And then it
was, "Well, it's only one pound, one pound will be so easy to take off." Then the one because two, which turned into 4 and ended up being a total of 29 pounds gained back before it was all said and done!!! I'm frustrated! I'm MAD!!!! I'm ready to kick myself stupid. What do I do? I've felt this way before. I've cleared everything off the books and said to myself, "Enough is enough! No more!!" but it hasn't worked. Any one have any ideas?? At this point I will take any suggestions. I'm lost. Right now I keep losing the same 10 pounds over and over. I lose them, I gain them. I WANT to reach my goal. I want to be at my goal by July 12. I know what it takes to lose the weight. Why do I keep giving into the hamburgers and chocolates that call my name? This past week I didn't get in one run. Not one. My back hurt, my hip hurt and I was just plain lazy. Yes the body aches are real, but they are just an excuse for me to throw out to the world to excuse me from running. I am at a loss, I don't know what to do anymore. The past two days have been down right horrible. I've eaten what I wanted, when ever I wanted and didn't even bother to pretend to want to on my running shoes. So if anyone is out there in the great void......."Help, I'm lost." How do I get back into my groove????
was, "Well, it's only one pound, one pound will be so easy to take off." Then the one because two, which turned into 4 and ended up being a total of 29 pounds gained back before it was all said and done!!! I'm frustrated! I'm MAD!!!! I'm ready to kick myself stupid. What do I do? I've felt this way before. I've cleared everything off the books and said to myself, "Enough is enough! No more!!" but it hasn't worked. Any one have any ideas?? At this point I will take any suggestions. I'm lost. Right now I keep losing the same 10 pounds over and over. I lose them, I gain them. I WANT to reach my goal. I want to be at my goal by July 12. I know what it takes to lose the weight. Why do I keep giving into the hamburgers and chocolates that call my name? This past week I didn't get in one run. Not one. My back hurt, my hip hurt and I was just plain lazy. Yes the body aches are real, but they are just an excuse for me to throw out to the world to excuse me from running. I am at a loss, I don't know what to do anymore. The past two days have been down right horrible. I've eaten what I wanted, when ever I wanted and didn't even bother to pretend to want to on my running shoes. So if anyone is out there in the great void......."Help, I'm lost." How do I get back into my groove???? 
Darci - I get that way too at times, really most of the time. I need something to re-set me, recharge me and start again.
ReplyDeleteWell, I certainly can't give weight loss advice since I struggle with my weight. I haven't stepped on the scale in 3 weeks but my body says I'm probably up about 5 pounds ...or so. As far as running, I've been doing this since I was 18 yr old and I've had many many ups and downs- peaks and valley in my runs. It's pretty normal after a big race to kind of take a few steps back.
ReplyDeleteI think last year you gave your running and weight loss 150% of yourself and make huge changes very rapidly at a very aggressive pace. My thought is that maybe you burned yourself out. It's probably good you've had some time to sit back and reflect and relax. You'll get back into it, you always do. Take it slow...no hurries on making any goal - said from a chubby runner who also struggles.