Well, it's been a while since I've posted. I'm going to confess here because I doubt that anyone really reads this and maybe if I get it off my chest I can move on. I feel ashamed that I have let life get in the way of my exercise, my eating well and myself. I've let excuses creep in and I've accepted them knowing full well that they are not helping me in anyway. I let a change in my life bother me more than it should and a title or a stereotype knock me off my feet. And while I'm in the confessional I'll add this also, I've got to admit that even though I am excited to get back into hospital nursing, the job is stressing me out. I didn't realize how much stress it was causing until Friday when I was forced to stand up and say "I'm struggling here and I need help".
I still haven't figured out a way to get my runs in and work 12.5 hours a day. I did run on Monday after my shift, but I paid for it on Tuesday with REALLY tight and sore calves....so I feel like I'm back at square one. I know I feel better when I run. But right now the running hasn't as enjoyable as it usually is. I don't know if it's the little aches and pains with the runs or a mental issue that is making not so enjoyable.
I still haven't gotten with Chris to figure out how to post photos and make this blog more my own. And I didn't keep track of all my foods this past week the way I should have. So in order to give myself a goal to meet this week and make a small step forward, this week I am challenging myself to post all the foods I eat for one week on "Lose It".
As for my weigh in this week was a push as well, I didn't gain, but I didn't lose anything either. So I've found out how much I need to eat to stay the same. I guess that's something. I've also been fighting the "I want junk food" demons this week really bad. Guess it's a good thing we didn't have any real junk in the house.
So that's been the way my life has been going for the past week and a half. I work and tell myself that on my days off I will run, then I get side tracked with cleaning and working on the quilt for Emma and other small projects that need to get done and worrying about how I'm going to get better at my new job. So I really didn't get any miles in this week, but according to Daily Mile I did 10. I have to find a way to motivate myself and juggle all the things in my life. Any ideas??? Any suggestions????
Hey - I read your blogs. :-). I've been in the same boat with the junk food and logging. I feel your pain. Okay this reply is not about me so let's move on. I've been sitting here pondering your 12.5 hour work day. That is a LONG day and understandably hard to get exercise in. My first thought would be to drastically reduce the miles on your work days to maybe just 2 miles just to get a run in...or, just run on your days off. In my experience, I have to run before life gets in the way so I normally plan on doing it in the a.m. Something Mario told me when I was in college was to use a planner, fill in all the time that you are required to be somewhere then schedule around it. Make running an appointment with yourself and keep it- but be gentle not to set yourself up - just schedule lightly until you get adjusted...and definitely make time for those things that relax you (such as your craft projects) as that will ease some of the stress.
ReplyDeleteMost importantly, don't be too hard on yourself right now. You're adjusting to a new stressful job and it will take time to get in the rhythm. You already set a goal of logging your food for a week which is good. And...you ran 10 miles last week which is still good. Be gentle to yourself.