There are all kinds of "gods" out there, believe me I know. In nursing we highly discourage you from saying the word "quiet", it tends to be followed by chaos. When I golfed, you always had to give a ball to the water hazards...the water gods. So today I laced up my shoes, bowed to the running gods and gave them what I knew they would ask for. I lowered my running ratio, dropped my distance and ran. It has taken me too many days to lace up my shoes this time. I just ran for the run. Didn't set out for a distance, a set pace, just a run. Let me tell you, it hurt! I can't believe that the running gods took so much for sitting on the couch for six days. My lungs burned, my knee whined, my body screamed stop! I ended up doing a little more than 2.5 miles, but it felt like twice that amount. That's the price you pay when you don't use your body. And of course you pay for it in other ways. So I gave the running gods their horrible run and I'm sure that they will take more for my lack of dedication lately. With that statement, I now pledge to get my a$$ off this chair, the couch, the bed, the whatever and get back on the treadmill and the road! No one is going to do it for me, no one can help me. This post hasn't started out like they normally do and if you've been reading for a while, you may have noticed I skipped a week. So to back the truck up last week was BAD! I posted a gain, my number then was 179.8 a seven pound gain. And this week I didn't even weigh in. My consultant was not there, so I just bowed out and did a food order, then left. I quietly told myself I did it because Lisa wasn't there, because this journey is a private one. Right, I did it because I knew I hadn't been good this week either! So I have no new number to post this week, but I can tell if I did, it would be a gain again. I have learned so much in the past two years and the past four months have shown me I still have so much more I need to learn. I need to find a way to control the food demons that haunt me or the scale devil will win. I look back at the past year and all the photos my hubby took of me and I want to be back at my 154 number again. I liked that smile. I like the way I felt. I was tons more confident, my clothes looked better, I was running or some type of exercise every day, just a better person. Oh and I was working, so tomorrow I will start my new job. This is a new beginning. I know what I need to do to lose the weight, I know. So I see today and a way to wipe the slate clean and start fresh for me. I need to do this for me. I so badly want to reach my goal this year. I know that I can, I just need to focus and stop giving in to the temptations. So here is a list of goals for my new year: 1) To reach my goal weight of 135. 2) To complete two 1/2 marathons this year. 3) To run 1500 miles for the year. According to my Garmin I ran 928 miles in the year 2012 and according to Dailymile I did 1393, so I want to bet that. 4) To visit my daughter in Washington state, (my reward for reaching my goal) by hopefully July. 5) To be physically ready and financially ready (meaning saving enough money) to run the Disney Princess in 2014! 6) To go back to college and start on my way to a BSN. So that is my list of goals for 2013. I need to make print it out and figure out how to get some of them done. Some I know is just how bad do I want it, some is where do I start? So say good bye to 2012 and hello to 2013, til next week. Keep moving ~ Darcy
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