Week 45 - deleted by mistake.

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Week 45: Getting back to routine.

Why week 45? Well, I have been on the Jenny program for 45 weeks. This week I did see my usual consultant and I posted a gain, but a loss. Now, how can I post a gain and a loss at the same time? Last week I did not weigh in I just bought food because my consultant had a family emergency. But I knew that I had a gain so I politely declined getting on the scale. Now I wish I had gotten on, because it looks like I didn't do any thing this week and gained more weight. My new number is 180.8, which from week 43 is a pound gain. In reality it is a 6 pound drop from the previous Saturday. So the lesson learned here? Always get on the scale. You earn what you earn and if you want credit for being good, you got to take the good with the bad. I did stay on plan every day but but one last week. I am starting to see a pattern develop and I'm not quite sure why. My homework for the next week is to try and figure out why I "melt down" on Wednesday evening. I seem to go on an eating binge on Wednesday or Thursday evening looking back at my logs and I'm looking for the cause. My other homework for the this week is to learn what "hungry" really feels like. My consultant asked if I was "head hungry" or "stomach hungry" when I had my melt downs. After thinking about it for a few minutes after the appointment, I'm not sure which I was. So I will start using the "are you hungry" tool that is on my JC menu sheet before meals. It basically asks you to rate your hunger before you eat something. So far today, I haven't really been "stomach hungry" at all. I am hoping that I can find a pattern and that will help me find a solution to stop the cycle and in turn help me reach my goal. I know what I need to be doing, just need to look at my stumbling spots now.

This week I started back to work which made staying on plan easier. I also started a pre-training program to get my running back on track. I want to sign up for the Prairie Fire 1/2 Marathon at the end of this month, so I am following my cousin's lead and doing a five week program to get my running back to where it should be. Then I will start the 12 week 1/2 marathon training. I'm really excited to know that she is training to run as well. I really hope that she can over come her obstacles and run this race as well. I know she runs at a faster pace than I do, but for some odd reason I find comfort in knowing that she would be suffering on the course as well. Part of me is worried about how our "photographers" will follow the both of us at different paces, but part of me whats the company during my "misery". I will be watching her training with excitement. As for my training this week, I did get in five run days. I also took two days off, but only meant to take one. It's okay, I did better last week than I have in several weeks. But I only did one day of core. So now that all the holiday hoopla is over and I have started back to work, I am hopeful that this is the beginning of me getting back on track. I can reach my goals if, and only if I get my mind in the right place. Till next week, keep moving everyone. ~ Darcy

Week 46 & 47. Opps, I missed a week.

I can't believe that I forgot to post last week.  I must be slipping just a little in my game.  So I will just have to combine the last two weeks into one post.  Here it goes.  Week 46 I posted a loss of 4.6 pounds, so my new number two weeks ago was 176.2.  I did really well staying on plan and was actually excited to go in for the weigh in last week.  We discussed what I did right and what I did wrong and made plans for the following week.  I went out that evening and bought an indoor cycle to give myself some variety in my exercise routine.  So this week #47 I posted a 0.6 pound loss, my new number this week 175.6.  I didn't do as well at sticking to the plan this week and did eat a little more chocolate than I should have.  I have to admit that I bought a couple of bags of Valentine's candy.  I think if I buckle down and try a bit harder I can get to a two pound loss next week.  It's just getting hard to resist the valentine's candy out in the store.  Why does Valentine's day have to so much emphasis on candy?  Don't we have enough temptation out in the world already?  I love chocolate and chips, these are my weakness.  I'm so over the holidays, I guess that I'm happy with having a loss.  Even though it was not as large as I wanted.  Like I said earlier, I'll just have to work harder and stay away from the candy aisles at the stores.  Two more weeks then....they will put the pink wrapped candy on sell!!!  Just kidding, well maybe.  I'm still "rewarding" myself with a new iTunes song if I stay on plan all week, this week I only earned two songs.  And I still haven't earned a new e-book, not yet anyway.  We talked again of strategies to avoid the temptations and ways to not deprive myself.  But somehow just taking out 9 kisses and put the bag away, just doesn't seem to help.  We also talked about my exercise routine this past week, because of the new cycle.  Lately I have been having trouble getting up every morning to exercise.  One or two days and then I just want to sleep for that extra hour before work.  So my commitment this week it to get up every morning and exercise.  Every single day.  We agreed that it could even be yoga, just to help get me back into the routine of getting up and moving.  Today I knew that I needed to run and do core before my appointment or I would not reach my commitment of four days of cardio and three days of core for the week.  It was so hard to get my shoes on and moving still.  I can say I always feel better once I get through about 5 to 6 minutes, but it's just getting me up from the chair.  I am up to 3 and half minutes of running, so I'm still on plan for my pre-training for the 1/2 marathon training.  Okay, that's my last two weeks.  I'm finally going in the right direction again.  Let's hope that I stay that way.  Have I mentioned that I really don't like winter???? Is it spring yet?????  Until next week, keep moving everyone. ~ Darcy

Week 44 ~ Giving one to the running gods.

There are all kinds of "gods" out there, believe me I know.  In nursing we highly discourage you from saying the word "quiet", it tends to be followed by chaos.  When I golfed, you always had to give a ball to the water hazards...the water gods.  So today I laced up my shoes, bowed to the running gods and gave them what I knew they would ask for.  I lowered my running ratio, dropped my distance and ran.  It has taken me too many days to lace up my shoes this time.  I just ran for the run.  Didn't set out for a distance, a set pace, just a run.  Let me tell you, it hurt!  I can't believe that the running gods took so much for sitting on the couch for six days.  My lungs burned, my knee whined, my body screamed stop!  I ended up doing a little more than 2.5 miles, but it felt like twice that amount.  That's the price you pay when you don't use your body.  And of course you pay for it in other ways.  So I gave the running gods their horrible run and I'm sure that they will take more for my lack of dedication lately.  With that statement, I now pledge to get my a$$ off this chair, the couch, the bed, the whatever and get back on the treadmill and the road!  No one is going to do it for me, no one can help me.  This post hasn't started out like they normally do and if you've been reading for a while, you may have noticed I skipped a week.  So to back the truck up last week was BAD!  I posted a gain, my number then was 179.8 a seven pound gain.  And this week I didn't even weigh in.  My consultant was not there, so I just bowed out and did a food order, then left.  I quietly told myself I did it because Lisa wasn't there, because this journey is a private one.  Right, I did it because I knew I hadn't been good this week either!  So I have no new number to post this week, but I can tell if I did, it would be a gain again.  I have learned so much in the past two years and the past four months have shown me I still have so much more I need to learn.  I need to find a way to control the food demons that haunt me or the scale devil will win.  I look back at the past year and all the photos my hubby took of me and I want to be back at my 154 number again.  I liked that smile.  I like the way I felt.  I was tons more confident, my clothes looked better, I was running or some type of exercise every day, just a better person.  Oh and I was working, so tomorrow I will start my new job.  This is a new beginning.  I know what I need to do to lose the weight, I know.  So I see today and a way to wipe the slate clean and start fresh for me.  I need to do this for me.  I so badly want to reach my goal this year.  I know that I can, I just need to focus and stop giving in to the temptations.  So here is a list of goals for my new year: 1) To reach my goal weight of 135.  2) To complete two 1/2 marathons this year.  3) To run 1500 miles for the year.  According to my Garmin I ran 928 miles in the year 2012 and according to Dailymile I did 1393, so I want to bet that.  4) To visit my daughter in Washington state, (my reward for reaching my goal) by hopefully July.  5) To be physically ready and financially ready (meaning saving enough money) to run the Disney Princess in 2014!  6) To go back to college and start on my way to a BSN.  So that is my list of goals for 2013.  I need to make print it out and figure out how to get some of them done.  Some I know is just how bad do I want it, some is where do I start?   So say good bye to 2012 and hello to 2013, til next week.  Keep moving ~ Darcy