Yo-Yo's

I've been up, I've been down.  I've been up again and now I'm down again!  I feel like I've been battling the weight forever.  I can only hope that this time I have learned enough to keep it off.  But today I want to celebrate and pat myself on the back just a little.  Today was weigh in day.  My new number?  165.2, why is this a great number?  It's only a one pound drop from last week and we all know I don't like just losing one pound.  But this week 165.2 gets me to a total weight loss of 100 pounds since May of 2010!  Not all of it has been done on Jenny Craig, not all of it was done running, or counting every calorie.  I am not going to stop here either.  Yesterday my boss asked how much more I want to lose, my answer was another 40 pounds.  She replied "There won't be anything left of you!"  My husband asked the question of me last week, "When are you going to start eating again?"  I never want to eat the way I did in the past.  I never want to be over 200 on the scale again.  So this week's weigh in made me smile and wonder what it would feel like to have that amount hanging on my body again.  Only time can tell if I've learned lessons and will make better choices.  My consultant and I talked about the fact that she still doesn't think I'm getting enough protein in my diet.  So, we took some foods off the menu for this week added some that have more protein in them.  When asked if there were any challenges this week, for the first time I had to say "Yes."  What is the challenge?  My birthday is coming this week.  I can be honest here (because no one really reads this anyway, right?) and say, I'm terrified of eating out.  I did eat out when I went home last month for my run and I know I floundered that week.  I believe I had a two pound gain.  I don't think I ate all that bad when I went home.  I didn't eat LARGE portions and I ran a 10K while I was there.  But still it took me two weeks to get back on track.  So yes, eating out terrifies me!  Can I trust myself?  As I sit here I'm not sure and I don't want to take that chance.  I will have to post on Thursday to let you know how I did.  We didn't change anything in the way of my plan for the week other than adding more protein.  I'm still eating 1200 calories more or less, meaning if I go over a little I don't fret too much and definitely keep it under 1500 daily.  So I've lost 42 pounds and ten inches total with JC to date.  My new goal is now to make it under 161, which is my husband's current weight.  I'd love to be under it next week, but I don't think I can reach that goal especially when I have my birthday in this week too!                              

Exercise wise this week I made small increases in time for work days and running days, not anything that is really noticeable but I'm thinking if I do it slowly, maybe my body and my mind won't notice.   I wasn't really happy with today's run, my electronic toys did work the way they should have and I stopped my run short today.  The run itself was going great, I wasn't tired and I was doing almost 3 minutes running and one minute walking.  I'll try again tomorrow to get a long run in.  I'm also seriously considering doing two half marathons this year.  Yes I said two, I must be nuts.  I am looking at how much money and time off of work, plus the pounding my body will take.  I know I will need to make a decisions by the end of August, because that's when the entry fees go up and if I'm going to do them I'm not paying a larger entry fee!  Will keep you posted on this as well.

Okay, so why is this post entitled Yo-Yo?  Because I wanted to post some photos to remind myself of how much work I've done.....

These first four were taken between September 2000 and November 2002.

You'll have to forgive the quality of the photos, I'm not sure where the original are any more.

These last were taken between May 2010 and July 2012.  Just like my Yo-Yo at the beginning, I've gone up and down.  Let's hope I remember the trips and all the work this time!

7 July 2012