Goal is close

My next weigh in isn't until Saturday, but you know me, ever compulsive.  I have gotten on and off the scale so much in the last few days.  If the scale could talk I'm sure it would tell me to "Go Away!".   I'm getting closer to my lowest weight of the summer and it's making me so antsy.  That along with the date of my 10K race creeping closer has got me a little wired.  Or maybe it's just the caffeine.  Sometimes I look at my daily miles and think there is no way I will be able to complete a 10K.  I don't know why, but I feel like I should be able to run at least 6 miles as a base to be able to complete this 10K with no problems.  I'm getting to the four and a half mark now on my daily runs, but there are days when I don't even feel like running that.  Three miles is such a comfortable zone for me.  I'm having a little bit of a hard time stretching out of this zone.  Last week I did walk a bit more of the miles than I wanted, but work really kicked my butt.  I'm not fond of working four 12 hour shifts in a week and working three back to back makes it really rough.  So I guess today's post is just a little vent to get the worry off my chest and to tell that little voice to "Be Quiet!"  Why do we push ourselves so hard?  This desire can be such a double edged sword.                                              

I did better last week with stress working all those hours.  I don't think I ever felt the need to implode at work last week, so that is a positive note.  Now I just need to get my legs and my feet to keep moving and learn to enjoy the moment for what it is when I'm running.  I listen to music to keep me motivated and moving.  Yesterday the play list was what kept me going during the last half mile.  This worries me also, because I have my sights on the "Cherry Blossom 10 mile run"  next year.  As I was looking at the website, iPods and headsets are not allowed in this run.  That is a challenge I will take a closer look at after June.  I will have to start looking for ways to wean myself off the music or find another race.  Well that's my post, I guess I feel a little bit better.   Time to stop stalling and lace my running shoes.  Til next time, keep moving!