Sometimes I struggle.......

Sometimes I think I'm too hard on myself and then sometimes I wish I could push myself harder.  This week's weigh in was a 1.2 pound loss.  I'm kinda disappointed with that number.  My counselor is telling me that this is a good number.  That I took it a little easier this week and I still had a loss.  That this is the normal about expected and a healthy amount to lose.  I still want more.  We talked a little about my half way point and that it wasn't as far away as I felt is was.  But still looking back, I wish I had pushed myself a littler harder.  So the scale now shows 196.0 for a number.                                I took two days of rest this week and did cut my mileage down a lot.  So now I know that I need to move everyday or at least push myself a littler harder to get bigger numbers of loss on the scale.  I left this week promising my counselor that I would not push myself too hard this week and that I would start thinking about what I would do to celebrate my half way point.  I'm thinking right now that I will buy myself a new running outfit for my 10K River Run, if I can get really close by that time.  I'm still enjoying the food and I'm still not getting hungry through out the day.  I still struggle on days that I work to get in all my snacks and meals, but I'm doing well over all and have no problem staying around that 1500 calories per day mark.  I'm told that my calories may drop to 1200 daily when I reach the 190 mark, but we would have to see how much activity I was doing at that point.  So I took an easy week for training and I saw what eating and just 11 miles of running would get me.  So now back to the grind and pushing out of my comfort zone again.  Maybe not 22 miles every week, but a little more than 11 miles a week for sure.  So that's this week check in.  How was your week?