Okay, it's been a long time since I've shown my face around here!  So first my list of excuses.....work is kicking my butt, my right knee is STILL giving me problems, my daughter had a baby (NO, that does not make me a grandma!), and I've just been flat out lazy lately! 
   So, I'm not really sure where I started in weight before, but as of yesterday I was 204.6.  That is an ugly number and I'm not going to settle with that.   I'm just not!  I've been going up and down for the past two months and never gotten below the 200 mark again like I was in November of last year before I moved to El Paso.  I've decided to give myself  the rest of this week to look into the options and pick something to get me under that number.  I'll let you know what I've decided next week.  For the rest of this week my goal is just to maintain at this number and NOT go any higher.
   My running has taken such a backseat the past three weeks, I've really not gone near the treadmill.  I guess my biggest issue here is working 12.5 hour shifts and being on my feet all day.  Then I just can't quite convence myself that a 30 minute walk on days I work is okay and better than nothing.  My days off lately have been spent, working a quilt for Emma, running errands and doing housework.  So my challenge here is to learn to manage to set some time aside for running.   That said I did run today, I did a total of 4+ miles, I love that running doesn't b*tch at you for not showing up for three weeks and it lets you walk when you get tired.  I did walk the last half mile or so, but it sure felt good to move.  And my knee didn't hurt too much, nor does it hurt much now.  So my goal for this week is to get myself out of bed and at least WALK 30 minutes before work on one of my scheduled days.  Plus run one more day this week. 
   Food wise I've been just down right awful and I know it!  Whatever was fast and easy and of course it had no nutritional value as well.  Plus one really busy day at work I didn't eat at all, so when I got home I did the eat everything you see thing when I walked in the door.  Also the day we opened our new unit, they brought in pizza, of course I had a slice of each of the veggie and the cheese pizzas.   So next week, tracking....again!  Track just one week of my meals on Lose It.  I know Chris has decided that it just doesn't work for her, but I need to see it in black and white.  I need someone or something to look me in the face and say "Girl, you're eating too much!" 
  I'm overweight!  I like Chris think that my knee hurts because I have too much weight on my body.  I also think my feet and legs hurt after my long shifts at work more because of the weight on my body.  And last but not least, .....I'm tired of people judging me by what they see when they look at me.  I know this is the way the world work.  I can not change the world, but I can change me! 
   Well that's my very long winded post.  Hope I didn't bore you Chris or who ever else might be out there reading...I promise not to take this long to post next time.......world peace!